I caved.

There's always this voice in the back of my head that wants to share EVERYTHING with John. For the most part, it's a very good thing. It keeps communication open and honest between us, even when the topic is really difficult (e.g. my recent cold feet).

This voice, however, is also a surprise ruiner. John opens his gifts early, knows what he's getting, and is rarely surprised because I can't keep a secret from him. So far, the only real secret I have in regards to the wedding is my dress, because he has no desire to see it until I walk down the aisle.

Stupid voice made me cave on my big secret: boudoirs. Now, John knew I was taking them. I've seen a lot of knotties talk about how their FIs would be uncomfortable with them taking boudoir pictures, and I didn't want my gift to him to backfire. He was more than fine with the idea, and really really wanted to see the pictures. I said no, I wanted to keep them all secret until the wedding, when I gave him the album as a gift.

Well, I caved and showed him three of the pictures. Not that big of a deal, but part of me is kind of annoyed because I loved the idea of keeping that secret and I couldn't. On the other hand, one/two of the pictures I really wanted his opinion on. I got all my images both in color and black and white, and there was one image I loved, but couldn't figure out if it looked better in color or black and white. So I showed him both. Sigh. Oh well... he had as much trouble figuring out which one he liked more as I did, and suggested selective coloring (keep the reds, eliminate all other colors). The third I just loved, and wanted to show to him. I kept all the other images under wraps though...

Anyone else just incapable of keeping a secret from their FI?