Oh my.

5 months.

150 days.

We're getting close! I'm getting to a part of my planning that I'm genuinely concerned about though: the part where I have to hand the reins over to someone else, and hope that they do it. The 3 things that are currently on our list are: get rehearsal dinner booked, find attire for groomsmen, and get our marriage affidavits signed and turned in. None of these things are things I control.

John and his side of the family take care of 2.5 (rehearsal, attire, and affidavits) of the 3 things, my family takes care of the other .5 (affidavits). Part of the Catholic marriage preparation is having 2 witnesses for each of you fill out an affidavit saying that you're free to marry in the Church, and you're marrying of your own free will. These need to be signed in the presence of a priest or deacon. I just have to hope that our people will remember to bring them to Church with them on Sunday!

It's really hard to relinquish control. For the entirety of our engagement, I've been in charge, and when I need something from someone else, I'm usually involved (John, we're meeting with a florist on Monday. Carlin, can you attend a dress appointment Saturday morning?). When my decisions involve other people, they get input, but I'm still the one setting things up and getting things done. You always hear that no one really cares about your wedding as much as you do, which is true and totally ok. What's kind of scary is telling those people that you need something done, and knowing there's really not much you can do once the request is made except for follow up.

Ok, scared vent over. Anyone else getting the "getting close but not too close" nerves?